Ordinarily, not aware, you go on thinking anything. It
is difficult to find a person who has not committed many murders
in thought; difficult to find a person who has not been doing all
sorts of sins and crimes inside the mind -- and then these things
happen. And remember, you may not murder, but your continuous thinking
of murdering somebody may create the situation in which the person
is murdered. Somebody may take your thought, because there are
weaker persons all around and thoughts flow like water: downwards.
If you think something continuously, someone who is a weakling
may take your thought and go and kill a person.
That's why those who have known the inner reality of man,
they say that whatsoever happens on the earth, everybody is responsible,
everybody. Whatsoever happens in Vietnam, not only are Nixons responsible,
everybody who thinks is also responsible. Only one person CANNOT
be held responsible, and that is the person who has no mind; otherwise
everybody is responsible for everything that goes on. If the earth
is a hell, you are a creator, you participate.
Don't go on throwing responsibility on others -- you are
also responsible, it is a collective phenomenon. The disease may
bubble up anywhere, the explosion may happen millions, thousands
of miles away from you -- that doesn't make any difference, because
thought is a non-spatial phenomenon, it needs no space.
That's why it travels fastest. Even light cannot travel
so fast, because even for light space is needed. Thought travels
fastest. In fact it takes no time in travelling, space doesn't
exist for it. You may be here, thinking of something, and it happens
in America. How can you be held responsible? No court can punish
you, but in the ultimate court of existence you will be punished
-- you are already punished. That's why you are so miserable.
People come to me and they say, "We never do anything
wrong to anybody, and still we are so miserable." You may
not be doing, you may be thinking -- and thinking is more subtle
than doing. A person can protect himself from doing, but he cannot
protect himself from thinking. For thinking everybody is vulnerable.
No-thinking is a must if you want to be completely freed
from sin, freed from crime, freed from all that goes around you
-- and that is the meaning of a buddha.
A buddha is a person who lives without the mind; then he's
not responsible. That's why in the East we say that he never accumulates
karma; he never accumulates any entanglements for the future. He
lives, he walks, he moves, he eats, he talks, he is doing many
things, so he must accumulate karma, because karma means activity.
But in the East it is said even if a buddha kills, he will not
accumulate karma. Why? And you, even if you don't kill, you will
accumulate karma. Why?
It is simple: whatsoever Buddha is doing, he is doing without
any mind in it. He is spontaneous, it is not activity. He is not
thinking about it, it happens. He is not the doer. He moves like
an emptiness. He has no mind for it, he was not thinking to do
it. But if the existence allows it to happen, he allows it to happen.
He has no more the ego to resist; no more the ego to do.
That is the meaning of being empty and a no-self: just being
a non-being, ANATTA, no-selfness. Then you accumulate nothing;
then you are not responsible for anything that goes on around you;
then you transcend.
Each single thought is creating something for you and for
others. Be alert!
But when I say be alert, I don't mean that think good thoughts,
no because whenever you think good thoughts, by the side you are
also thinking of bad thoughts. How can good exist without bad?
If you think of love, just by the side, behind it, is hidden hate.
How can you think about love without thinking about hate? You may
not think consciously, love may be in the conscious layer of the
mind, but hate is hidden in the unconscious -- they move together.
Whenever you think of compassion, you think of cruelty.
Can you think of compassion without thinking of cruelty? Can you
think of nonviolence without thinking of violence? In the very
word "nonviolence," violence enters; in the very concept
it is there. Can you think of BRAHMACHARYA, celibacy, without thinking
of sex? It is impossible, because what will celibacy mean if there
is no thought of sex? And if brachmacharya is based on the thought
of sex, what type of brahmacharya is this?
No, there is a totally different quality of being which
comes by not thinking: not good, not bade, simply a state of no-thinking.
You simply watch, you simply remain conscious, but you don't think.
And if some thought enters… it WILL enter, because thoughts
are not yours; they are just floating in the air. All around there
is a noosphere, a thought-sphere, all around. Just as there is
air, there is thought all around you, and it goes on entering on
its own accord. It stops only when you become more and more aware.
There is something in it: if you become more aware, a thought simply
disappears, it melts, because awareness is a greater energy than
thought.
Awareness is like fire to thought. It is just like you burn
a lamp in the house and the darkness cannot enter; you put the
light off -- from everywhere darkness has entered; without taking
a single minute, a single moment, it is there. When the light burns
in the house, the darkness cannot enter. Thoughts are like darkness:
they enter only if there is no light within. Awareness is fire:
you become more aware, less and less thoughts enter.
If you become REALLY integrated in your awareness, thoughts
don't enter you; you have become an impenetrable citadel, nothing
can penetrate you. Not that you are closed, remember -- you are
absolutely open; but just the very energy of awareness becomes
your citadel. And when no thoughts can enter you, they will come
and they will bypass you. You will see them coming, and simply,
by the time they reach near you they turn. Then you can move anywhere,
then you go to the very hell -- nothing can affect you. This what
we mean by enlightenment.
Now try to understand Tilopa's sutra:
If one sees nought when staring into space;
If with the mind one then observes the mind,
One destroys distinctions and reaches buddhahood.
IF ONE SEES NOUGHT WHEN STARING INTO SPACE… This is
a method, a tantra method: to look into space, into the sky, WITHOUT
SEEING; to look with an empty eye. Looking, yet not looking for
something: just an empty look.
Sometimes you see in a madman's eyes an empty look -- and
madmen and sages are alike in certain things. A madman looks at
your fact, but you can see he is not looking at you. He just looks
through you as if you are a glass thing, transparent; you are just
in the way, he is not looking at you. And you are transparent for
him: he looks beyond you, through you. He looks without looking
AT you; the "at" is not present, he simply looks.
Look in the sky without looking for something, because if
you look for something a cloud is bound to come: "something" means
a cloud, "nothing" means the vast expanse of the blue
sky. Don't look for any object. If you look for an object, the
VERY LOOK creates the object: a cloud comes, and then you are looking
at a cloud. Don't look at the clouds. Even if there are clouds,
you don't look AT them -- simply look, let them float, they are
there. Suddenly a moment comes when you are attuned to this look
of not-looking -- clouds disappear for you, only the vast sky remains.
It is difficult because eyes are focused and your eyes are tuned
to look at things.
Look at a small child the first day born. He has the same
eyes as a sage -- or like a madman: his eyes are loose and floating.
He can bring both his eyes to meet at the centre: he can allow
them to float to the far corners -- they are not yet fixed. His
system is liquid, his nervous system is not yet a structure, everything
is floating. So a child looks without looking at things; it is
a mad look. Watch a child: the same look is needed from you, because
again you have to attain a second childhood.
Watch a madman, because the madman has fallen out of the
society. Society means the fixed world of roles, games. A madman
is mad because he has no fixed role now, he has fallen out: he
is the perfect drop-out. A sage is also a perfect drop-out in a
different dimension. He is not made; in fact he is the only sanest
possibility. But the whole world is mad, fixed -- that's why a
sage also looks mad. Watch a madman: that is the look which is
needed.
In old schools of Tibet they always had a madman, just for
the seekers to watch his eyes. A madman was very much valued. He
was searched after because a monastery could not exist without
a madman. He becomes an object to observe. The seekers will observe
the madman, his eyes, and then they will try to look at the world
like the madman. Those days were beautiful.
In the East, madmen have never suffered like they are suffering
in the Wst. In the East they were valued, a madman was something
special. The society took care of him, he was respected, because
he has certain elements of the sage, certain elements of the child.
He is different from the so-called society, culture, civilization;
he has fallen out of it. Of course, he has fallen down; a sage
falls up, a madman falls down -- that's the difference -- but both
have fallen out. And they have similarities. Watch a madman, and
then try to let your eyes become unfocused.
In Harvard, they were doing one experiment a few months
ago, and they were surprised, they couldn't believe it. They were
trying to find out whether the world, as WE see it, is so or not
-- because many things have surfaced within the last few years.
We see the world not as it is, we see it as we expect it
to be seen, we project something onto it.
It happened that a great ship reached a small island in
the Pacific for the first time. The people of the island didn't
see it, nobody! And the ship was so vast -- but the people were
attuned, their eyes were attuned to small boats. They had never
known such a big ship, they had never seen such a thing. Simply
their eyes would not catch the glimpse, their eyes simply refused.
In Harvard they tried on a young man: they gave him spectacles
with distorting glasses, and he had to wear them for seven days.
For the first three days he was in a miserable state, because everything
distorted, the whole world around distorted… It gave him
such a severe headache, he couldn't sleep. Even with closed eyes
those distorted figures would… the faces distorted, the trees
distorted, the roads distorted. He couldn't even walk because he
couldn't believe: "What is true and what is given by the projection
of distorting glasses."
But a miracle happened! After the third day he became attuned
to it; the distortion disappeared. The glasses remained the same,
distorting, but he started looking at the world in the same old
way. Within a week everything was okay: there was no headache,
no problem, and the scientists were simply surprised; they couldn't
believe it was happening. The eyes had completely dropped, as if
the glasses were no longer there. The glasses were there, and they
were distorting -- but the eyes had come to see the world for which
they were trained.
Nobody knows whether what you are seeing is there or not.
It may not be there, it may be there in a totally different way.
The colours you see, the forms you see, everything is projected
by the eyes. And whenever you look fixedly, focused with your old
patterns, you see things according to your own conditioning. That's
why a madman has a liquid look, an absent look, looking and not
looking together.
This look is beautiful. It is one of the greatest tantra
techniques.
IF ONE SEES NOUGHT WHEN STARING INTO SPACE…..
Don't see, just look. For the beginning few days, again
and again you will see something, just because of the old habit.
We hear things because of old habit. We see things because of old
habit. We understand things because of old habit.
One of the greatest disciples of Gurdjieff, P.D. Ouspensky,
used to insist to his disciples on a certain thing -- and everybody
resented it, and many people left because of that insistence. If
somebody said, "Yesterday you told…" he immediately
would stop him and say, "Don't say it like that. Say, 'I understand
that you said this thing yesterday.' 'I understood….' Don't
say what I said; you cannot know that. Talk about what you heard." And
he would insist so much because we are habitual.
Again you might say, "In THE BIBLE it is said…" and
he would say, "Don't say that! Simply say that you understand
that this is said in THE BIBLE." With EACH sentence he insisted, "Always
remember that this is YOUR understanding."
We go on forgetting. His disciples went on forgetting again
and again, and every day, and he was stubborn about it. He would
not allow you to go on. He would say, "Go back. Say first
that, 'I understand you said this, this is my understanding'… because
you hear according to yourself, you see according to yourself --
because you have a fixed pattern of seeing and hearing."
This has to be dropped. To know existence, all fixed attitudes
have to be dropped. Your eyes should be just windows, not projectors.
Your ears should be just doors, not projectors.
It happened: One psychoanalyst who was studying with Gurdjieff
tried to do this experiment. In a wedding ceremony he tried a very
simple but beautiful experiment. He stood by the side, people passing,
and he watched them and he felt that nobody at the receiving end
was hearing what they were saying -- so many people, some rich
man's wedding ceremony. So he also joined in and he said very quietly
to the first person in the receiving line, "My grandmother
died today." The man said, "So good of you, so beautiful." Then
to another he said it, and the man said, "How nice of you." And
to the groom, when he said this, he said, "Old man, it is
time you also followed."
Nobody is listening to anybody. You hear whatsoever you
expect. Expectation is your specs -- that is the glasses. Your
eyes should be windows -- this is the technique.
Nothing should go out of the eyes, because if something
goes a cloud is created. Then you see things which are not there,
then a subtle hallucination… Let pure clarity be in the eyes,
in the ears; all your senses should be clear, perception pure --
only then the existence can be revealed to you. And when you know
existence, then you know that you are a buddha, a god, because
in existence everything is divine.
IF ONE SEES NOUGHT WHEN STARING INTO SPACE;
IF WITH THE MIND ONE THEN OBSERVES THE MIND….
First stare into the sky; lie down on the ground and just
stare at the sky. Only one thing has to be tried: don't look at
anything. In the beginning you will fall again and again, you will
forget again and again. You will not be able to remember continuously.
Don't be frustrated, it is natural because of so long a habit.
Whenever you remember again, unfocus your eyes, make them loose,
just look at the sky -- not doing anything, just looking. Soon
a time comes when you can see into the sky without trying to see
anything there.
Then try it with your inner sky:
… IF WITH THE MIND ONE THEN OBSERVES THE MIND …
Then close your eyes and look inside, not looking for anything,
just the same absent look. Thoughts floating but you are not looking
for them, or at them -- you are simply looking. If they come it
is good, if they don't come it is good also. Then you will be able
to see the gaps: one thought passes, another comes -- and the gap.
And then, by and by, you will be able to see that the thought becomes
transparent, even when the thought is passing you continue to see
the gap, you continue to see the hidden sky behind the cloud.
And the more you get attuned to this vision, thoughts will
drop by and by, they will come less and less, less and less. The
gaps will become wider. For minutes together no thought coming,
everything is so quiet and silent inside -- you are for the first
time together. Everything feels absolutely blissful, no disturbance.
And if this look becomes natural to you -- it becomes, it is one
of the most natural things' one just has to unfocus, decondition.
… ONE DESTROYS DISTINCTIONS …
then there is nothing good, nothing bad; nothing ugly, nothing
beautiful,
… AND REACHES BUDDHAHOOD.
Buddhahood means the highest awakening. When there are no
distinctions, all divisions are lost, unity is attained, only one
remains. You cannot even call it "one," because how can
you call it "one" without deep down saying "two." No,
you don't say that "one" remains, simply that "two" has
disappeared, the many has disappeared. Now it is a vast oneness,
there are no boundaries to anything.
One tree merging into another tree, earth merging into the
trees, trees merging into the sky, the sky merging into the beyond… you
merging in me, I mergine in you… everything merging… distinctions
lost, melting and merging like waves into other waves… a
vast oneness vibrating, alive, without boundaries, without definitions,
without distinctions… the sage merging into the sinner, the
sinner merging into the sage… good becoming bad, bad becoming
good… night turning into the day, the day turning into the
night… life melting into death, death molding again into
life -- then everything has become one.
Only at this moment buddhahood is attained: when there is
nothing good, nothing bad, no sin, no virtue, no darkness, no night
-- nothing, no distinctions. Distinctions are there because of
your trained eyes. Distinction is a learned thing. Distinction
is not there in existence. Distinction is projected by you. Distinction
is given by you to the world -- it is not there. It is your eyes'
trick, your eyes playing a trick on you.
THE CLOUDS THAT WANDER THROUGH THE SKY
HAVE NO ROOTS, NO HOME;
NOR DO THE DISTINCTIVE THOUGHTS
FLOATING THROUGH THE MIND.
ONCE THE SELF-MIND IS SEEN,
DISCRIMINATION STOPS .
THE CLOUDS THAT WANDER THROUGH THE SKY HAVE NO ROOTS AND
NO HOME….. And the same is true for your thoughts, and the
same is true for your inner sky. Your thoughts have no roots, they
have no home, just like clouds they wander. So you need not fight
them, you need not be against them, you need not even try to stop
thought.
This should become a deep understanding in you, because
whenever a person becomes interested in meditation he starts trying
to stop thinking. And if you try to stop thoughts they will never
be stopped, because the very effort to stop is a thought, the very
effort to meditate is a thought, the very effort to attain buddhahood
is a thought. And how can you stop a thought by another thought?
How can you stop mind by creating another mind? Then you will be
clinging to the other. And this will go on and on, ad nauseum;
then there is no end to it.
Don't fight -- because who will fight? Who are you? Just
a thought, so don't make yourself a battle ground of one thought
fighting another. Rather, be a witness, you just watch thoughts
floating. They stop, but not by your stopping. They stop by your
becoming more aware, not by any effort on your part to sto them.
No, they never stop, they resist. Try and you will find: try to
stop a thought and the thought will persist. Thoughts are very
stubborn, adamant; they are HATHA YOGIS, they persist. You throw
them and they will come back a million and one times. You will
get tired, but they will not get tired. It happened that one man
came to Tilopa. The man wanted to attain buddhahood and he had
heard that this Tilopa has attained. And Tilopa was staying in
a temple somewhere in Tibet. The man came; Tilopa was sitting,
and the man said, "I would like to stop my thoughts."
Tilopa said, "It is very easy. I will give you a device,
a technique. You follow this; just sit down and don't think of
monkeys. This will do."
The man said, "So easy? Just not thinking of monkeys?
But I have never been thinking about them."
Tilopa said, "Now you do it, and tomorrow morning you
report."
You can understand what happened to that poor man… monkeys
and monkeys all around. In the night he couldn't get any sleep,
not a wink. He would open his eyes, and they were sitting there,
or he would close his eyes and they were sitting there, and they
were making faces… He was simply surprised. "Why has
this man given this technique, because if monkeys are the problem,
then I have never been bothered by them. This is happening for
the first time!" And he tried, in the morning again he tried.
He took a bath, sat, but nothing doing: the monkeys wouldn't leave
him.
He came back by the evening almost mad -- because the monkeys
were following him and he was talking to them. He came and he said, "Save
me somehow. I don't want this, I was okay, I don't want ANY meditation.
And I don't want your enlightenment -- but save me from these monkeys!"
If you think of monkeys, it may be that they may not come
to you. But if you want not… if you want them NOT to come
to you, then they will follow you. They have their egos and they
cannot leave you so easily. And what do you think of yourself:
trying not to think of monkeys? The monkeys get irritated, this
cannot be allowed.
This happens to people. Tilopa was joking, he was saying
that if you try to stop a thought, you cannot. On the contrary,
the very effort to stop it gives it energy, the very effort to
avoid it becomes attention. So, whenever you want to avoid something
you are paying too much attention to it. If you want not to think
a thought, you are already thinking about it.
Remember this, otherwise you will be in the same plight.
The poor man who was obsessed became obsessed with monkeys because
he wanted to stop them. There is no need to stop the mind. Thoughts
are rootless, homeless vagabonds, you need not be worried about
them. You simply watch, watch without looking at them, simply look.
If they come, good, don't feel bad -- because even a slight
feeling that it is not good and you have started fighting. It's
okay, it is natural: as leaves come in the trees, thoughts come
to the mind. It's okay, it is perfectly as it should be. If they
don't come, it is beautiful. You simply remain an impartial watcher,
neither for nor against, neither appreciating nor condemning --
without any valuation. You simply sit inside yourself and look,
looking without looking at.
And this happens, that the more you look, the less you find;
the deeper you look, the thoughts disappear, disperse. Once you
know this then the key is in your hand. And this key unlocks the
most secret phenomenon: the phenomenon of buddhahood.
THE CLOUDS THAT WANDER THROUGH THE SKY
HAVE NO ROOTS, NO HOME;
NOR DO THE DISTINCTIVE THOUGHTS
FLOATING THROUGH THE MIND.
ONCE THE SELF-MIND IS SEEN,
DISCRIMINATION STOPS.
And once you can see that thoughts are floating -- you are
not the thoughts but the space in which thoughts are floating --
you have attained to your self-mind, you have understood the phenomenon
of your consciousness. Then discrimination stops: then nothing
is good, nothing is bad; then all desire simply disappears, because
if there is nothing good, nothing bad, there is nothing to be desired,
nothing to be avoided.
You accept, you become loose and natural. You simply start
floating with existence, not going anywhere, because there is no
goal; not moving to any target, because there is no target. Then
you start enjoying every moment, whatsoever it brings -- whatsoever,
remember. And you can enjoy it, because now you have no desires
and no expectations. And you don't ask for anything, so whatsoever
is given you feel grateful. Just sitting and breathing is so beautiful,
just being here is so wonderful that every moment of life becomes
a magical thing, a miracle in itself.
IN SPACE SHAPES AND COLOURS FORM,
BUT NEITHER BY BLACK NOR WHITE IS SPACE TINGED.
FROM THE SELF-MIND ALL THINGS EMERGE,
THE MIND BY VIRTUES AND BY VICES IS NOT STAINED.
And then, then you know that IN SPACE SHAPES AND COLOURS
FORM. Clouds take many types of shapes: you can see elephants and
lions, and whatsoever you like. In space forms, colours, come and
go… BUT NEITHER BY BLACK NOR WHITE IS SPACE TINGED… but
whatsoever happens, the sky remains untouched, untinged. In the
morning it is like a fire, a red fire coming from the sun, the
whole sky becomes red; but in the night where has that redness
gone? The whole sky is dark, black. In the morning, where has that
blackness gone? The sky remains untinged, untouched.
And this is the way of a sannyasin: to remain like a sky,
untinged by whatsoever comes and happens. A good thought comes
-- a sannyasin doesn't brag about it. He doesn't say, "I am
filled with good thoughts, virtuous thoughts, blessings for the
world." No, he doesn't brag, because if he brags he is tinged.
He does not claim that he is good. A bad thought comes -- he is
not depressed by it, otherwise he is tinged. Good or bad, day or
night, everything that comes and goes he simply watches. Seasons
change and he watches; youth becomes old age and he watches --
he remains untinged. And that is the deepest core of being a sannyasin,
to be like a sky, space.
And this is in fact the case. When you think you are tinged,
it is just thinking. When you think that you have become good or
bad, sinner or sage, it is just thinking, because your inner sky
never becomes anything -- it is a BEING, it never becomes anything.
All becoming is just getting identified with some form and name,
some colour, some form arising in the space -- all becoming. You
are a being, you are already that -- not need to become anything.
Look at the sky: spring comes and the whole atmosphere is
filled with birds singing, and then flowers and the fragrance.
And then comes the fall, and then comes summer. Then comes the
rain -- and everything goes on changing, changing, changing. And
it all happens in the sky, but nothing tinges it. It remains deeply
distant; everywhere present, and distant; nearest to everything
and farthest away.
A sannyasin is just like the sky: he lives in the world
-- hunger comes, and satiety; summer comes, and winter; good days,
bad days; good moods, very elated, ecstatic, euphoric; bad moods,
depressed, in the valley, dark, burdened -- everything comes and
goes and he remains a watcher. He simply looks, and he knows everything
will go, many things will come and go. He is no more identified
with anything.
Nonidentification is sannyas, and sannyas is the greatest
flowering, the greatest blooming that is possible.
IN SPACE SHAPES AND COLOURS FORM,
BUT NEITHER BY BLACK NOR WHITE IS SPACE TINGED.
FROM THE SELF-MIND ALL THINGS EMERGE,
THE MIND BY VIRTUES AND BY VICES IS NOT STAINED.
When Buddha attained to the ultimate, the utterly ultimate
enlightenment, he was asked, "What have you attained?" And
he laughed and said, "Nothing -- because whatsoever I have
attained was already there inside me. It is not something new that
I have achieved. It has always been there from eternity, it is
my very nature. But I was not mindful about it, I was not aware
of it. The treasure was always there, but I had forgotten about
it."
You have forgotten, that's all -- that's your ignorance.
Between a buddha and you there is NO distinction, as far as your
nature is concerned, but only one distinction, and that distinction
is that you don't remember who you are -- and he remembers. You
are the same, but he remembers and you don't remember. He is awake,
you are fast asleep, but your nature is the same.
Try to live it out in this way -- Tilopa is talking about
techniques -- live in the world as if you are the sky, make it
your very style of being. Somebody is angry at you, insulting --
watch. If anger arises in you, watch; be a watcher on the hills,
go on looking and looking and looking. And just by looking, without
looking at anything, without getting obsessed by anything, when
your perception becomes clear, suddenly, in a moment, in fact no
time happens, suddenly, without time, you are fully awake; you
are a buddha, you become the enlightened, the awakened one.
What does a buddha gain out of it? He gains nothing. Rather,
on the contrary, he loses many things: the misery, the pain, the
anguish, the anxiety, the ambition, the jealousy, the hatred, the
possessiveness, the violence -- he loses all. As far as what he
attains, nothing. He attains that which was already there, he remembers.
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